Lazy Saturday Morning...

I love Friday evening. It's a prelude to a lazy Saturday morning. Especially when under the weather! My cat is definitely in heat. Sometimes, she looks at me really weird. Maybe she's so desperate that she thinks I may be her possible suiter. Yikes!!

'Desperate singles' seems like an appropriate title for me and my cat. haha!

On a lazy Saturday morning like this, I often dream of waking up next to that someone sweet and uncomplicated. Really miss the warmth of having someone next to me. But then, I also remember those complicated feelings and thoughts: I really didn't like the fact that I often felt lonelier being next to someone. It felt like a mile of emotional wall between that special someone and me. I remember how I used to be so upset with Chris when he channeled me out while I needed him to listen to me. I also remember how strange it felt when Eugene took the relationship with me like one of his business deals. Perhaps, that's the reason why I often look back and wonder if I've made the right choice when I broke up with Danny back when.

Danny was my first boyfriend. Innocent and true! Back when I was very insecure and scared about everything, I felt very secure around him. He loved me plenty and I couldn't wait to see him again after those sweet good night kisses...now he's married with 3 kids. Can't stop wondering how my life could have panned out if I stayed with him, if we actually got hitched, if I am married to him now... Could we have been happy together after all? Would he be happy with me? and me with him? Or maybe we hated each other so much we ended up getting a divorce or be miserably stuck with one another like a life-time sentence? What's unveiled and in the past often becomes a dream and comes back to haunt me time to time...